Have you ever had one of those weeks where you just could not seem to tunnel through? Well this was it for me. I found myself trying to be more than I had the energy to be. Last week we talked about remembering who we are. Well, I truly forgot who I was and whose I was somewhere around Thursday. I tried to figure out what happened, but even as I write this entry, I cannot put my hand on it. I do know that I have to do a much better job of teaching people how to treat me. I was talking with another sisterfriend and I recalled the scene from "What's Love Got to Do With It?", when Tina walked into the hotel the night of the Grammys.(after the fight in the limo with Ike) I felt beaten, battered and broken. I did not have the energy to pray because I wasn't exactly sure what I was praying about. Was it my husband? Was it my uncertainity because I have been out of work since June and I was beginning to feel the pressure? Was it my family, my friends?
Last night I cried until I fell asleep. I went to church hoping for some clarity to come. I found myself crying again. By the way, I am not the crying type. So as I sit here tonight, I am still pondering what went wrong last week? How did I get a way from me? Where did I go and where do I go from here?
So my question, when you found yourself to be out of sorts what did you do to get back to you? If you have a favorite scripture that helped please share and explain how it helped you. If a favorite book or favorite quote or meditation, explain how it helped you.
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